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this weekend sucks.
the one thing i wanted more then anything lately, and of coarse- it had to get fucked up.
i'm laying here, exhausted, bummed, and just.. bleh.
i like caring, for once.

oh how great it is.


I AM SO FUCKING CONFUSED RIGHT NOW !

i know just what i want, just not quite sure how to get it.

so confused about so many things, and of coarse, all the really important things.

there's only one school i really want go to in toronto, i really hope i get in.

mira wants me to move to NC with her, ugh, that would be amazing too.

for the first time in a long time, i actually have feelings for someone. and it's been over two weeks, hah. bleh.

i should be sleeping right now, but im not tired- at all.
school tomorrow, and for some odd reason- im excited.

i could go on forever.

peace out !

tonight, random phone ringing brought me happiness !

"you didnt tell me to go up the mountain"
ugh i miss charles, way too much.

montreal for reading week? fuck yes.

i've been listening to regina spektor & shania twain all day.

i'm confused.
and still missing my best friend.

it's saturday night, at 9 30, and im home- fuck the weather, and bordum

for the last week, rebekka has been living with me.
it was so fun, and could be happening again soon, she's a fresh face that i needed more then anything. she's one of the best people who's ever walked into my life.

i miss my bestfriend way too much, WAY too much. but she's still my err'thing.

over the last few days, ive really just focused on the few people that mean the most, it's so much better that way.

paul ciancone, is probably one of the best guys alive, we've had our fair shares of ups and way the hell downs, but we've both matured and grown up so much (moreso him;) haha) and i love it. he's someone i can talk to about anything, have fun with, and just understand. it's amazing how after 4 years of friendship, just lately i've really realized this.i wouldn't trade it for the world.

i miss brampton phill, i'm listening to good charlotte.

i'm so content right now. ♥

tonights my last night of homework, assignments, and whatnot, so it's going to be shitty, but feel so good to get it done.

ii loovee joohhn maayyeerr.

i wish my hair would grow faster.
i miss huge sleepovers at my house all the time.
i miss the summer.
i miss my bestfriend.
and i miss other things i shouldn't really miss.


c'est la vie.

friday night was great, mugshot is amazing, and i can't wait to see them again on the 9th.

:).

nanny left today :(
at least she'll be back in another 6 weeks for my birthday !


so much homework today, bleh.

day 1.

i'm so happy.
but, i miss my bestfriend a lot.

tuesday was amazing !
i love my best friend more then anything, and the spa, and falling on subways, and loosing my car.

i've gotten so much work done in the last two days, and i'm getting all caught up in late assignments at school, it feels fantastic.

i'm so happy.

i started listening to nature sounds, baha. it's relaxing- cram it.

tomorrow♥
i can't forget les' brownies !

happy birthday sonya, i love you to death, and i can't wait to see you tomorrow. you're the most amazing girl alive, don't ever forget it. we'll get through all that's going on right now, don't worry baby.

so, the weather is shit today.
i slid across three lanes of traffic, and thought my life was coming to an end, haha. thankfully, my good driving skills kicked in for once.

as for now, i have three essays awaiting me, hooray.

i wish i had guitar hero, i hate bridge piercings on girls, someone write my exams for me?

my cell phone service would never cut out.
i'm so worried, so confused, and just want to know you're okay.

so far the new year, is a whole shit load of stress, yippie.
fuck school, i can't wait till after january 29th, to be done exams, this semester, and have more of a life again.

life should come with a pause, rewind, and fast forward button, or at least a manuel.
but then, everything would be way too easy.


night.